Unhappy ending in sight....
Some mom's get all antsy and excited as the summer starts to wind down, anxious to get their kids back in school and out of their hair. They long for the peace and quiet to return to their homes and the mayhem to be controlled to just a few hours at the end of each day. I completely see where those mom's are coming from. They struggle through the summer months with their children battling boredom and squabbles between each other and appreciate the difference in their families when their children are more focused and occupied by school.
I am NOT one of those moms.
As I look at the calendar tick away the last few weeks of summer sun, I'm sad. I love being able to spend each day with Bam-Bam, particularly on the days we're able to bask in the sunshine from the shores of Square Pond. I love how laid back we're able to be about our day. I love that we wake up when our eyes will no longer stay shut (although his arrive there long before mine would) and we don't necessarily have to stick to the bedtime schedule either.
I've already started paying preschool for the coming year and just thinking about him being back makes me anxious inside. I feel as though I will miss him after spending so much time together this summer. He's been difficult, defiant, argumentative and rambunctious as I'm sure those other mom's children are. But he's also been adventurous, curious, loving, playful, happy and excited. Maybe it's the extent of the journey I had to take to get him, but I really relish these times so much. He's never going to be this little, innocent boy for long and I'm grabbing feverishly at burning these days into my memory as deeply as possible.
Thank you, Tall Boy, for working as hard as you do to afford me this luxury. Your generosity, sacrifice and love for us is a gift I will treasure forever.
I love you both so very much. I have been blessed.